Merry Christmastime

Merry Christmastime is playing a game with me. It pokes at my depression bit by bit. I am cheerful when I am shopping, but when I get home watch out here comes depressive time for me. I guess church will have to cheer me up too. I will need it this year. I am in high anxiety too. I am moving the first of the month. I just fixed my place up for Christmastime with a lighted angel, lights of all colors, and decorating the tree with homemade popcorn balls & gingerbread men & strings of cranberries, a lighted garland around my door, and window snow spray since there is no snow outside yet. Hard to believe since this is Northern Minnesota and winter started several weeks ago. This has me depressed since I have to pack and take down plus clean by the 1st of January. That will be all packed away and shipped to Arizona in Mesa where I have family, since I will be on my own and not with them. I am staying in a shelter there til I get an apartment of my own. This is the only way I can do it. Otherwise I'm here in depressive misery with RH arthritis. I will be very happy when I am in warm Arizona. I will be careful when selecting an apartment as my SSI budget is small. This is how I intend to cheer myself up this year.