Plain Meanness of Family

Today I went on a days vacation to be alone with just me. I went down towards Tucson to the south of my town. I went shopping at tiny boutiques for interesting ideas on how to decorate on our income. Well that went well. I called my mom who was also shopping garage and rummage sales in MN today. The meanness of her unnerves me. I told her what I did today and she said that was good and that she got me a 2X size nice Sunday dress at a garage sale. I am at best a 4X a most a 3X bottom wise. top wise I am a 2X. She said when I told her that it wont fit me, so dont send it to me. She said oh you can diet and lose weight your too fat anyhow. Never mind I just miscarried. I have no intention of dieting at this time. I am too depressed over that fact right now. I just needed time alone, hence the day to myself. My mom has always meant well, but to me she has always been mean about my weight even needling me on a daily basis when I lived up north. I am happy to be down here, but now I tend to wonder whether or not I am co-dependent on her abuse and what she thinks of my weight. Well I am at a restaurant typing, so I have to go. I got a rental laptop for 3 weeks at a Rent All sort of store. I get it for three weeks and if in good condition when I return it. I get my deposit back. Cool huh?!