Well this year my birthday was on Saturday, October 28th the same day it's been every year since my birth year. Some people in my community would say I am not a human being with feelings. Well I say they are the ones with the jealousy problem. For instance you all know what happened last year on my birthday. A refresher the group therapy I was in decided to celebrate someone elses birthday on my actual birthday day. It was a big emotional mess because they weren't even going to let me celebrate mine at all. Just the other person who's birthday was on a non group day. That person could have chosen any other day, but no she was jealous so she chose my day knowing that they only celebrate one at a time. Ousting me claiming they have planned it for months. New news to me, since I told them my order for a cake. Two weeks ahead of time. They just didn't want to acknowledge me as an individual with feelings and needs. My brother even got to celebrate his birthday on mine again ousting my celebration of life. I just got little say in any of it. This year I purposely spent it alone so I wouldn't have to deal with a family who doesn't ever acknowledge my existance. It's like I don't count in my family for real. I feel like the bastard of the family since I was old enough to remember. I also did it so I wouldn't have to share my day with anyone but me. I baked a cake for myself with candles and all. I went to a favorite actor movie and fantasized while watching it. Real Fun! A lot of fun!

I went to my favorite Mexican restaurant for a free meal on my birthday alone. It was extremely crowded. They squeezed me in to the bar with a table and chair. I was glad it was only one and so were they. They weren't going to take any further reservations until they found out it was just me. They were packed. 30 to 45 min. waiting for tables for families. I got in immediately. The food was great. The music too. They even shut off the game on TV for me and played the really fun Mexican music on the intercom. I didn't drink as I was on medication for depression, but I had fun without alcohol. My best present was finding parking right up by the front door as some got disgusted and left. Guess they were tired of waiting. Hehe. Hurray for me though.

I can honestly say turning 38 is going to be great and not depressing like it has been in the past years. Well happy birthday to me. :o)